"O Romeo, Romeo, wherefore art thou Romeo?"
Really though. Where is my Romeo? Yes, I am about to talk guys. For this is what's on my mind. And in my blog that's what I do, speak my mind.
No matter where I looked, and no matter how hard I looked, I could never seem to find the right guy. Lets be realistic, there's no 'Perfect Guy', but I took a look around and this is what I found. There were a few 'Too-immature' guys, a whole handful of 'Jerk-guys-who-seem-like-they-either-have-emotional-issues-or-are-just-downright-player' guys, and one or two very rare -drum roll- 'Almost-Romeo' guys. *sigh*...
And you know what? The 'Almost-Romeo' guys are so dayyuuum hard to grab onto. I haven't ever really been in a relationship... my luck in love hasn't been the best lately... but look, I'm not gonna send you all into a coma talking about that part, but long story short? Everytime I set my eyes on a guy I like, he either gets a girlfriend, or nothing ever happens. Honestly... right now "I got an I heart question mark written on the back of my haaaand."
Let's cut to the chase. Right now I reeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeally like this guy who I've only become friends with since about two weeks ago. But he is so great. Honestly.. he's all I've been able to think about this past week! He's funny, smart, reaally sweet, and we have alot in common... ohhhh and I forgot to mention he's cute with a good body :)
So lets add that up:
funyy (+1)
smart (+1)
really sweet (+2)
alot in common (+3)
and the looks (+58)
So really, it's all about the math ;)
But anyway, one night (before I even had the chance to charm the pants right off of him LOL figure of speech, calm down, get your mind out of the gutter hehe) he goes to a party, and comes back telling me all about this girl he met (oh and hooked up with). He wants to ask her out.
As I was talking about this to my best-friend (Zoe) on the phone, we decided that I needed to take action! I needed to do something to really get this guys attention. Possibly help him realise how much I actually genuinely like him.
But as I went on MSN (IM) to do that, he tells me he asked out the girl and she said yes.
Greeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeat.
"Oh, happy dagger, this is thy sheath; there rust and let me die!"
I was straight back on the phone with Zoe and she couldn't believe it. She had thought that maybe he liked me from what I had told her about him.
I was talking to another friend (Nicole) and she was actually telling me about her boyfriend, and how it took him an entire year to notice her, and she had to wait, but "it was worth it".
I then decided that I like this guy enough to wait...
He is worth the wait, I think.
But how long exactly will I have to wait for my 'Almost-Romeo' ?
I really want to tell him how I feel, but what will he do now he has a girlfriend?
If anyone has a suggestion, please, I'm all ears.
Rachel x
Friday, October 23, 2009
Wednesday, October 7, 2009
I'm aliveeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeee!
Thank God I've made it through is half of the week.
Honestly, I must say it is some sort of a miracle, with all the mood swings and the headaches and the whiny friends that don't know when to stop talking (+ over-exaggerating).
But finally I've been allowed some "me-time" (haha) and I thought I'd catch up on my good old bloggery :)
This is gonna be a long one, so brace yourselves. And also prepare to laugh at me with pity.
Let's start with Monday, shall we?
Aaaaahh. First day back at school. How positively refreshing. I just love to look around at all the little wonders like trees blooming in the spring weather; friends excited to see each other again, and then the bell goes, and just like old times, everyones happy expressions drop from their faces and BADA BING BADA BOOM! It's like we never left.
Apart from the fact that there had been some poorly sighted and/or colourblind painters (from what I gather) painting all the edges of the school maroon and green. EW. And last term I thought school couldn't get any worse. Apparently I was wrong. And BOY did those painters prove it. Anyway, everything seemed back to normal (meaning the stuff that happened at the party and everything). But the boy (who my friend supposedly snogged) [and who I now like for some stupid reason], he didn't seem too thrilled to see me.
And last term things were great, he was talkative and cuddly and all that, but now it's all gone. He completely ignored me all day!!!!! But nooooooooooooo he didn't ignore my friend (who apparently hooked up with him). Damn it was shattering.
At least I got to leave after lunch.
Oh yes, my day did get worse.
After my dissapointing encounter with the male species I had to go and get a blood test. Oh and an ultrasound.
No no no, don't jump to conclusions. I'm NOT pregnant (LOL). Though I must say I loved the thrill of making everyone crap themselves when I told them I had an ultrasound. I just had some girly problems I was a tad worried about, so I went and got tests done to see if I was OK. Everything was normal so thats good :)
But maaaaaaaaaaan was it hard to hold in a litre of water for an hour. I had to drink and drink before my ultrasound, (so they can see thingss clearly). And I was on the brink of letting go, especially when the nurse pressed on my bladder with the wierd probe thingy. I actually think I could've won a prize because my bladder was the size of THE EARTH.
I ran to the toilet when they were done.
My blood test made me a little nervous, as everyone was saying that it was soooo painful. I got so worried that I was sitting in the chair squeezing my Mums hand. Yes that's what I was reduced to in that embarassing moment. IT DIDN'T EVEN HURT!!! I was laughing with hysterical joy when it was over.
Wow that's a long Monday.
And Tuesday, well the boy didn't ignore me. He did this funny kinda thing when I was walking past him, he stopped and wouldn't let me pass, jumping in front of me when I moved to the side. I couldn't help but think it was cute.. especially when he smiled down at me with his blue eyes ....
*clearing throat* Ahhem.
But anyway.. last night my family drove me INSANE. Usually I put up with their nagging, but last night they pushed me right over the edge when they were lecturing me about how I spend too long on the computer. (WHICH I DON'T!). I screamed and yelled at them all and stormed off to my room, taking the laptop with me. I don't think I've ever snapped so easily in my 15 year long life.
As for today, well, it was nothing special. The boy was being flirted with by that girl who he supposedly likes. Well luuuuuuuuuuuuuuckyyyyyyyyyyyy him then.
Stupid bugger. He's really in love with me... but he doesn't know it yet. Uhh, KIDDING. Hahaha
I wish he was in love with me. That would be... wow, I have no word to describe it.
I sat with him for all of five seconds at the train station, but then my train arrived and ruined all the fun.
I think when I said bye I made a funny kinda face. Oh the humiliation.
Well... now this leaves me sitting alone in my room, blogging. Silently breaking down. But ohh well. I'm happy to be alive after these wacky few days. All the emotional ups and downs are driving me balistic!!
And my best friend is in another state for the week, and I can't call her. I think her phones dead. I misss herrrrrrrr.
Well, I'd best be off, because I think my ravenous cats are hungry.
Ta taaaa.
Rachel x
Honestly, I must say it is some sort of a miracle, with all the mood swings and the headaches and the whiny friends that don't know when to stop talking (+ over-exaggerating).
But finally I've been allowed some "me-time" (haha) and I thought I'd catch up on my good old bloggery :)
This is gonna be a long one, so brace yourselves. And also prepare to laugh at me with pity.
Let's start with Monday, shall we?
Aaaaahh. First day back at school. How positively refreshing. I just love to look around at all the little wonders like trees blooming in the spring weather; friends excited to see each other again, and then the bell goes, and just like old times, everyones happy expressions drop from their faces and BADA BING BADA BOOM! It's like we never left.
Apart from the fact that there had been some poorly sighted and/or colourblind painters (from what I gather) painting all the edges of the school maroon and green. EW. And last term I thought school couldn't get any worse. Apparently I was wrong. And BOY did those painters prove it. Anyway, everything seemed back to normal (meaning the stuff that happened at the party and everything). But the boy (who my friend supposedly snogged) [and who I now like for some stupid reason], he didn't seem too thrilled to see me.
And last term things were great, he was talkative and cuddly and all that, but now it's all gone. He completely ignored me all day!!!!! But nooooooooooooo he didn't ignore my friend (who apparently hooked up with him). Damn it was shattering.
At least I got to leave after lunch.
Oh yes, my day did get worse.
After my dissapointing encounter with the male species I had to go and get a blood test. Oh and an ultrasound.
No no no, don't jump to conclusions. I'm NOT pregnant (LOL). Though I must say I loved the thrill of making everyone crap themselves when I told them I had an ultrasound. I just had some girly problems I was a tad worried about, so I went and got tests done to see if I was OK. Everything was normal so thats good :)
But maaaaaaaaaaan was it hard to hold in a litre of water for an hour. I had to drink and drink before my ultrasound, (so they can see thingss clearly). And I was on the brink of letting go, especially when the nurse pressed on my bladder with the wierd probe thingy. I actually think I could've won a prize because my bladder was the size of THE EARTH.
I ran to the toilet when they were done.
My blood test made me a little nervous, as everyone was saying that it was soooo painful. I got so worried that I was sitting in the chair squeezing my Mums hand. Yes that's what I was reduced to in that embarassing moment. IT DIDN'T EVEN HURT!!! I was laughing with hysterical joy when it was over.
Wow that's a long Monday.
And Tuesday, well the boy didn't ignore me. He did this funny kinda thing when I was walking past him, he stopped and wouldn't let me pass, jumping in front of me when I moved to the side. I couldn't help but think it was cute.. especially when he smiled down at me with his blue eyes ....
*clearing throat* Ahhem.
But anyway.. last night my family drove me INSANE. Usually I put up with their nagging, but last night they pushed me right over the edge when they were lecturing me about how I spend too long on the computer. (WHICH I DON'T!). I screamed and yelled at them all and stormed off to my room, taking the laptop with me. I don't think I've ever snapped so easily in my 15 year long life.
As for today, well, it was nothing special. The boy was being flirted with by that girl who he supposedly likes. Well luuuuuuuuuuuuuuckyyyyyyyyyyyy him then.
Stupid bugger. He's really in love with me... but he doesn't know it yet. Uhh, KIDDING. Hahaha
I wish he was in love with me. That would be... wow, I have no word to describe it.
I sat with him for all of five seconds at the train station, but then my train arrived and ruined all the fun.
I think when I said bye I made a funny kinda face. Oh the humiliation.
Well... now this leaves me sitting alone in my room, blogging. Silently breaking down. But ohh well. I'm happy to be alive after these wacky few days. All the emotional ups and downs are driving me balistic!!
And my best friend is in another state for the week, and I can't call her. I think her phones dead. I misss herrrrrrrr.
Well, I'd best be off, because I think my ravenous cats are hungry.
Ta taaaa.
Rachel x
Tuesday, October 6, 2009
AAAAARRRGGGGGHHHHH.
Hey everyone,
So sorry but I can't blog till the weekend when I have some time because my family is driving me nuts and won't let on the net.
This will be the last you hear from me for a little haha,
possibly till Saturday.
Love and Light,
Rachel x
So sorry but I can't blog till the weekend when I have some time because my family is driving me nuts and won't let on the net.
This will be the last you hear from me for a little haha,
possibly till Saturday.
Love and Light,
Rachel x
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