Tomato face :|

Well that jog didn't help my mood as much as I thought it would. :
All it really did is almost make me faint, give me the reddest tomato face I have EVER had in my entire life, and supply me with yet another wonderful chance to embarrass myself in public.
Ohhhh boy.
Honestly though, there was a guy walking down the street who looked exactly like my neighbour, so I turned and said "Hey! :)"
It wasn't until the moment he started squinting at me with an utterly confused and unfamiliar face that I realised this was NOT my neighbour.
So my response to that was:
"Oh sorry wrong person.." *turns and walks off hurriedly, muttering oh god oh god that did NOT just happen...*

Anyhoo, my red face faded and that brings us to today!
So I spoke to him, it was just small talk but at least I got response.. I'm still a tad confused, I feel like things are different now, but I don't know why..
Did I do something?
Seriously, I just want to say to him "Why are things different? What's changed? You can't just leave me.. I MEAN, YOU ARE MY FRIEND. AND WHAT'S WITH YOU NOT TALKING TO ME ANYWAY?!?! HOW COULD YOU JUST DUMP SO MUCH ON ME THEN RUN OFF TO ANOTHER STATE! AND THEN HAVE THE NERVE TO COME BACK AND PRETEND WE NEVER HAD ANYTHING?! WHAT GIVES YOU THE RIGHT? I'M IN THIS AS MUCH AS YOU. I'M SCARED TOO YOU KNOW. YOU'VE BEEN AWAY, BUT IT'S LIKE YOU'RE STILL NOT BACK. YOU WON'T TALK TO ME. HOW DO I DEAL WITH THIS? HUH? TELL ME THAT. BECAUSE I CANNOT HANDLE THIS. AND I DEFINATELY CAN'T HANDLE IT ALONE."
Ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
Nice to get things off your chest and onto a blog haha.

Well, at least I have my good friends to keep me sane and back me up.
Which reminds me, he was talking to my friend Betty about me for ages in her class.. hmm.. what could that mean?
I feel like I'm getting mixed signals.

If anyone has feedback that would be awesome :)

Rachel x